May 27, 2016

I Guess This Is An Eleanor and Park Review...


(CAUTION: This post contains spoilers. LOTS of spoilers)

I’ve been a bookworm ever since I learned how to read. In my mind, books are windows to the world. They show us how people really are, they give us hope, and most importantly they inspire us. This is why whenever I find a book that really resonates with me, I just have to tell other people about it so that they’ll read it and hopefully enjoy the book as well (also so we can fangirl over the characters together).

Last summer, I read Eleanor and Park for the first time and immediately fell in love with it. This summer I found it in a bargain bin at Books-A-Million and decided relive the joy. I don’t really read any young adult novels aside from some occasional John Green, but I had heard glowing reviews about the book so I figured I’d give it a whirl. In its own nostalgic and quirky way, I feel like it properly holds it own as a love story. Through the novel, Rainbow Rowell shows the reader that it’s possible to believe in something pure and have it stay pure.

The book is set in 1986 in Omaha, Nebraska. Eleanor Douglas is new to the area, having been kicked out of her home by her step-father, Richie, one year prior. On the bus ride to her first day at her new school, she faces the unenviable task of trying to find a seat. After everyone that she passes refuses to let her sit with them and just as she’s on the brink of tears, Park Sheridan reluctantly lets her sit with him in his seat.

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One of the many things that I love about this book is that Eleanor and Park, at least from the way that they’re described phyiscally, don’t look like they would go together in real life. But somehow, some way, Rowell made it work. Eleanor is described as having a curly mane of red hair, being somewhat heavyset, and dressing strangely. I’m talking wearing men’s ties in her hair and attaching curtain tassels to her clothes weird.

But that’s basically where their love story begins. One of the things that I loved about Eleanor and Park’s relationship was that it evolved so easily. Right there in their seat at the back of the bus. Their relationship evolves from bitter silence to comfortable silence, comfortable silence to sharing comic books, and from comics to music. If you’re a fan of bands like The Smiths and retro MTV, the references in this book will take you all the way back to the plaid couch in your parent’s finished basement.

As if their physical appearances weren’t enough to set them apart, they come from two completely different home situations. Eleanor lives with her mother, stepfather, and four siblings in a two bedroom clapboard house. There is barely enough space for them all to function happily in and the family is barely able to get by. Conversely, Park lives a typical, wholesome, middle class life with his parents and younger brother. His father is of Irish descent and his mother is Korean. Parks ethnicity doesn’t really play an important part in the plot, but there is a lot of emphasis on it when Eleanor describes him in her head (“stupid cute Asian kid”).

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For a while things are great between them and they’re blissfully happy and in love. That is, until Eleanor’s step-father finds out that she’s been seeing a boy in the neighborhood and throws a fit around their small house while Eleanor is away with Park. She comes home and sees the numerous mixtapes that Park has made broken, the makeup (a gift from Park’s mother) strewn everywhere, and discovers by his scraggly handwriting that it was her stepfather who was writing perverted notes to her on the covers of her textbooks.

Seeing that she’s no longer safe in the home that was never hers to begin with, she and Park run away in the middle of the night so that she can seek refuge at her uncle’s house in St. Paul, Minnesota. Knowing all the while that she would ultimately have to leave him, Park drives her in the stick shift truck that his father had been trying to teach him with great disdain to drive throughout the book.

When she’s gone, Park sends her letter after letter and mixtape after mixtape hoping for a reply, but she never does. Sophomore year turns into junior year and then comes prom. The previous year, he asked Eleanor to go to prom with him (when the time came for them to go, of course) and she unwillingly said yes, dreading the task of telling him that she wouldn’t be able to afford a dress and other girly-prom luxuries. He ends up going with another girl, having an ok time, and pouring himself into bed at the end of the night.

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The next day he wakes up to his father dropping a postcard on his chest. It’s from Eleanor and besides the address, she only wrote three words.

The ending is what truly messed me up inside and tugged at my heart strings. You start to really feel sorry for Park because of his desperation at holding on to Eleanor, but then she finally responds to him. Months after the letters and tapes have stopped coming, she responds to him with three words.

I highly suggest that everyone read this book even if it is a “young adult” fiction novel.
This was intended to be a review of the book, but it just turned into word vomit on a computer screen. That’s okay, because hopefully now you understand just how beautiful and pure a first love can be, how it happens so easily and goes almost undetected. But most importantly how it’s worth fighting for.

May 21, 2016

Guilty Pleasures (Songs)

I'm incredibly passionate about music. When I hear a song that I identify with, it keeps playing in my soul while my brain is trying to learn the lyrics. I'll listen to pretty much anything except country (does Daddy Lessons by Beyonce count?), but occasionally I'll find myself sucked in by a song that I either originally didn't like. Or maybe a song that I love but my friends don't. I guess you could say that the following are guilty pleasures.



To say I absolutely hated this song when it first came out would an understatement. But with a thirteen year old little sister who loves anything on the Top 40 and a room next door to mine, I heard this song quite a bit. Eventually I started humming it, absentmindedly bobbing my head to it in my car, and the rest as they say is history. Fifth Harmony I don't know all your names, but dammit you all can make a hit.



As much as I dislike Justin Bieber, I cannot deny that this song is an absolute bop. The music video is so incredibly simple, but it has everything that I love: on pointe (see what I did there) dancing, killer dancing thanks to choreographer extraordinaire Paris Goebel and her dance crew, and despite being about a breakup and it's just a fun song.


This. Song. Goes. So. Hard. In the tamest way possible. What isn't to love? The reggae undertones, the lyrics being about a girl who's having the time of her life while her ex is sitting there salty about it, DRAKE DANCING?!?!?!? I never fail to sing along to this song when I comes on and I do so with a smile on my face. Most of my friends could care less about it, and I have one friend that refuses to listen to it. It's not necessarily a happy song, but it always makes me happy. And that's what music is supposed to do right?



Video Games was my gateway drug into the world of Lana Del Rey and I haven't been the same since. I found her the second semester of my sophomore year of high school and was just in complete awe of her. She was retro, edgy, and I wanted to be her best friend. Some of my friends can't stand the fact that all of her songs sound so sad (not ALL of them are sad, there are a few upbeat ones) but I'm so convinced that she is a magical, poetic vixen.



Literally anything that Pharrell Williams touches turns to gold. He's a hitmaker and musical genius, plain and simple. When "Happy" first came out as the theme for Despicable Me 2, I was so on board with it. I'd been dealing with depression since middle school and at first the song would annoy me, but soon it actually helped perk me up when I was down or having a particularly bad day. It's such a positive song and you can just see the love and care that went into making it.

May 16, 2016

Ulta Haul


This past weekend I treated myself to a little excursion to Ulta and picked up a few goodies: three Essie nail polishes, a Burt's Bees lip balm, two Revlon lipsticks, a Maybelline Baby Lips lip gloss, and a perfume roller ball.
I'm one of the oh so lucky few that's prone to chapped lips and I've been looking for a lip balm that can work for me for the longest time. I've kept hearing over and over again that Burt's Bees is a great brand so I finally buckled down and decided to give it a try. I went with Pink Grapefruit because 1.) I love grapefruit and 2.) It's 100% natural and specifically made to moisturize lips. There were some other moisturizing options that offered a lip tint in addition to moisture, but I think I'll wait a bit to try those out.
Lipstick has been a secret guilty pleasure of mine for a while now, so I decided to indulge a bit a get not one but two new shades. I'll admit, Maybelline is my makeup brand of choice, but these shades just looked too irresistible to pass up. On the left, there's Juicy Papaya and on the right Candy Apple. Juicy Papaya is pretty sheer and gives my lips a subtle, light glossy sheen which I like. Candy Apple is a bit darker, but not much, giving me a good shade of red that doesn't make my lips look fuller than they already are.
A self confessed nail polish junkie, when I saw these three shades on clearance I just had to get them. From left to right, the nail polishes are all by Essie in the shades Shade On, Too Too Hot, and Nama-stay the Night. At the moment I'm wearing Nama-stay the Night and I'm loving it. It's a different color than I'm used to wearing but I feel like it suits me.
My favorite thing that I bought this weekend is this rollerball of Marc Jacob's Dot perfume. I've wanted to try it out for the longest and actually found it near the register when I was getting ready to check out (They put all the good stuff near the register, that's how they get you). The smell is really light, fresh, and a teeny bit sweet. I may have to invest in an actual bottle of the perfume.

January 1, 2016

New Years

It's funny because last year I made a post similar to this about starting over. However, I failed terribly to update this blog regularly. But whatevs. New year, new start.

I'm a little nervous going into the new year because 2015 didn't go the way I wanted it to. Things are changing in my life and in some ways it's exciting, but in others it just makes me anxious for what's to come. I'm in my sophomore year of school. I turn twenty in April. Adulthood is upon me and I don't feel like I'm ready.

I've never really been one to make New Years Resolutions, but there's no harm in starting. In all, I have ten things that I want to get done before the end of the year, but here are five main ones:


  1. Be more financially responsible.
  2. Update blog regularly
  3. Work on photography
  4. Work out at least twice a week
  5. Be more adult/independent.
These are things that I want to get done for myself or just need to get done in general. It would be terribly cliche to say that I hope that 2016 will be my year, so instead I'll just say I hope to finish 2016 in better shape (mentally and physically) than I did 2015. Wish me luck.